Black Out
In my solitude
I reached for comfort in vain
As I struggled to maintain
Sanity
Lost consciousness of vanity
It too slipped away from me
Trouble upon me now
Don't know how
To escape the situation
Of sheer frustration
No vacation
Me without offering or sacrifice
A bride at a wedding without rice
Nothing value to my partner in life
Mass misery, constant strife
Failure cutting deep
Ignorant to sleep
A coma of sadness
Boxed In
Too light to fight
Too thin to win
Where did the state of affairs begin
Ah yes
That's it
The day I resolute to loved him
Never predicted they'd shun
Relationship not yet begun
I thought they'd take the time to know
The seed of trust our plant of devotion would grow
Onset of complication
Accumulation of frustration
Brought on by those of relation
They embraced hate
Refused to communicate
On destruction they contemplate
Continuously
Subjecting me
To rejection
severe lack of affection
Leaving him torn
Left without any other
to talk to
what will I do
must locate shelter from the storm
must locate comfort to keep me warm
hatred rained down hard on my head
evil and cold stares wish me dead
boxed in
Can't defend
position or stance
he's in a trance
stuck in fatherhood
they mean me no good
Still he lets them in
After all they're his kin
his life before the day of I
still there long after I die
don't desire to break the bond
Built before me
His only former stability
How could I remain true
If I were asking him to unglue
Himself for reasons of my sanity
How can it be
That we can't all
His former and present family
Just live in complete unity
boxed in
Can't defend
position or stance
My romance
Is in jeopardy
I GIVE UP
I Give Up
Because I can't give in
No
I cant pretend
That all is well and fine
When we're on the decline
Beginning to deteriorate
Why now
After we've paid for the cake
And I bore his namesake
Now the tables have turned
And all the love and respect I thought I'd earned
Is now hidden from me
I now stand
in a strange land
Cut off from the hand
That once cuddled my heart
So I give up
I refuse to fight anymore
Don't want to settle a score
All I wanted was eternity
In his bliss
Forever enslaved by
his kiss
Never thought I'd live to miss
That place in his heart
I once considered home
Reduced to minimal conversation
Filled with tones of negative
This is no way for either of us to live
I Give
Up.
